Moods controlled ... ha I know too many people including myself who can go from being sad and crying to happy and energized or vice versa within a half hour. And just have days where our moods are that uncontrolled.

I think Crime and Punishment is my new favorite book. I am even contemplating buying myself a copy so that I can reread it!
Life is so surprising, i can never take anything for granted!

Somehow I have to find a way to be me all the time with the support of me. How I don't know. This could be tricky and messy...but that's what's up. :(

Just one more thing. Mr. Hickman is my favorite. The world must be upside down. Oh well! The truth must out.

I donated blood today. success is mine for the week!

ummmmm i feel like five hours of sleep is a goal. This scares me.
I actually am not sure whether to be upset or relieved that I'm injured again for cross country and this scares me.
Homecoming will be crazy.
School (although fun) is crazy.
And because I can't say no! I'm leading tours in the cemetary (the place where they bury dead people) for the next two weekends.
Speech will start soon. My favorite drink is two cups of coffee (one mug) with half a cylinder of Abuelita (hot chocolate) and a splash of milk.
I don't think this is healthy y'all. lol

Today was we took an AMAZING field trip to the Lincoln museum in Springfield. Its really cool. And what do you know....I ended up crying in empathy. me who would have guessed. Sometimes I forget how wonderful my mundane friends are. Cazzie and Lindsea are wonderful. Also my baby is my camera. maybe i will find time to upload pics before.... well who knows when i will find time :)

for one year i have had the comments that savya and laura sent me at the beginning of last year saved in my inbox.
I kept them to remind me of how fast time flies. I just deleted them
I don't know why I feel like sharing this but i do:)

my birthday gathering was yesterday
I was very stressed out. I cried A LOT this morning
I'm feeling somewhat better
-my friends are awesome. I'm so blessed to have wonderful SCA and mundane friends-

I had meant to do this wednesday. yeah.......
any way its going really well. A LOT OF WORK. But that being said my classes AND teachers are interesting. I haven't quite made up my
mind if I'm going to enjoy or loathe seeing the same people essentially for every hour of the day.
IB ART- yeah we have to get real sketchbooks and do some art history :)
Spanish- love the learning, but oh man she really is actually making us learn at an IB pace. In spanish is that even allowed lol
English- with the best english teacher ever. Mrs. Funcannon. LOTS of reading logs and writing.
Math- I'm in the dumber IB math. we are going to cover a lot just not in depth. she reminds me of a third grade teacher. So much less stressful than
Mr. hickman
IN a lunch with ezzie.
Ceramics- the laid back male art teacher stereotype.
Biology- Mrs. Heinrichs. is awesome. end of story. First two days. design your own experiment. here u get four twinkies.
History- she front loads her class. I'm feeling a bit stressed right now, however it should get better....
Cross country I should do a whole other post about.



**happy birthday chen

Today is my first cross country practice, which really brings home the fact that school is in two weeks. Today is also my presentation for my internship, and my FINAL day of the job. (sadness) i really liked working there. But I also like not having to worry about it anymore.
Right now I'm waiting for my new bras to come in. also I'm trying this new thing called hydration. yeah who knew you should actually be sweating when exercising. lol its a new feeling for me. it also makes me pee a ridiculous amount :) so gotta figure out how i'm going to do this with school. some of my friends moved this last weekend to N. Carolina. I suspect it won't really sink in until I get back to school and they aren't there. Had to read crime and punishment this summer. Read it once. Need to read those first 150 pages again, and yet I hated them the first time, so I am really not relishing reading them a second time :P

was my persuasive presentation for COMM
i did my speech on why we should support insurance for infertility treatments :P
i can't imagine any one on my friends list would care about that topic, right.... :)
i think it went well, and we made a cardboard ship (at the end of class) for our final presentation, a group presentation of our dream vacation!!

when i got up today around six
i realized a couple of things

1. my alarm was supposed to go off at 5:15 so that my brother and i could go running 
2. i had actually gotten up that early BY MY INTERNAL alarm and was just laying in bed for some reason thinking i didn't have to be anywhere
3. the scariest part of all is that my third thought was wow this feels SO LATE 
4. i have now had a very LEISURELY morning in which i don't have to leave the house until 7:30
5. when i had been getting to work @ 7 
6. lastly what i have discovered is that i love the morning and i am braindead between the hours of 1:30 and 3:30

good things

• Comm class @ ICC =enjoyable 
• Work "MIdterm " presentation went well
• Spent time with Kaylee and Kathy which is always good... we were doing our homework.

silly things

• because i was too scared to brave the OSF parking garage i drove home from class TO HOME and then begged 
• my recently awoken father to drop me off.

finals start next week
my job starts the week after
life is busy. decently happy. new camera (yeah!)